3:18 AM
Monday, March 29, 2010
I don't want to leave you..
I hope I don't have to..
It'll be painful if we had to part..
Hopefully that day won't come..
1:41 AM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I think I really need you to be with me now..
When my phone received a song from my laptop, it vibrated and I took it up thinking it was you, but I'm wrong..
Then again, I saw the "new message" symbol, excitedly clicking it to find that it's not you..
I need you..
Just being around me is enough..
I miss you..
1:27 AM
I know I needed you to be around..
But I know you needed more rest..
I didn't mean to lie to you..
I just didn't want you to worry..
It's impossible for me to be fine now..
Tears keep falling and I kept wiping..
No one will see them.."These few years, I've been hiding my emotions so well, that everyone thinks I'm fine again."I wish I am..
But that part of me isn't leaving..
I'll be fine after a few tears..
That's how life is for me..
10:41 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
And when she's back...
I'll naturally fade into darkness...
All my friends will surround her with joy...
No one will take notice of me...
Even if I were to disappear...
I'm just nothing compared to her...
11:06 PM
Monday, October 5, 2009
"Do I want you or Do I need you?"
A question that I pondered upon...
By wanting someone,
it meant that without him/her, you'll be fine with it.
By needing someone,
it meant that you can't make do without him/her.
In life, there are always people that you know you want.
But many times, while we're busy wanting people,
all we ever wanted was the one that we needed.
Yet, we were often blinded by the people we want,
so much that we neglected those we needed.
There were times when we held on,
thinking and hoping that the one we're holding on is the one we needed.
But when it's time to let go,
we still held on.
Have we ever wondered why we have to let go?
Were there problems that set us apart?
Who would be the one that understands and try to salvage this bond between us?
The one that we wanted? Or the one that we needed?
More than often, the ones that are wanted don't know so much about us.
They support us in ways that make us feel comfortable.
That's why we want them.
They are merely just temporal comfort.
But those that we needed, knew us well enough to be there for us.
They know what we needed, not what we wanted.
They are the ones who gives us lasting support.
Then again, how do we know who are those we need and those we want?
This, I can't answer, but rather, try asking yourself how you feel about the person.
Would you be fine without that person around?
Why do you like being with that person?
Hmm.
Thoughts in my mind.
Unheard. Unspoken. Unwanted.
10:26 PM
Friday, September 4, 2009
都是假的,都是假的,全都是假的!
对我好,关心我... 这一切都是假的!
只有在需要的时候才来找我...
不需要的时候就把我瞥在一旁,不顾我感受.
我也是人,我也有感觉.
竟然我这么令人讨厌,那就别理我...
不要假好心对我好,然后再狠狠地刺伤我!
你们全部都是假的... 我恨你们!
12:03 AM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Week 2:
Been stuck with a detestable pest while on my way home.
Very much irritating but I have to tolerate.
So with music and some companion over the phone,
life became less miserable on the ride home.
Why would someone who's so mean suddenly stop being mean to you?
After much thought and consideration, my answer to that is...
I don't know.
Sadly, but true.
*sighs*
A friend of mine is in trouble with his relationship.
And with my intelligence over the network,
my findings tell me this relationship is pretty much one-sided.
But it's not my job to tell him.
He has to observe it himself and I wouldn't want to affect him on his exam period.
Hope something good will turn out.
Jiayou, brother!